Sweet end to a very busy day. I am thankful today for you ;) I did not eat really great today. I did manage to only smoke 3 cigarettes. Better then a pack I guess..Keep the patches going. I watched the video for the Bowflex and need to get a routine of some sort together. I didnt get to diner till late and decided against a late walk and went to the pool instead. Let me chat for a minute about the pool.
Ok I go to the pool at night for several reasons. First of all I hate the blaring heat we have here during the day. I HATE the heat. I sweat alot and it sucks. It drains me and sucks the life out of me. I dont have AC in my truck either and I have to run around a lot. So the first reason would be its not a million degrees outside. Second, its always empty. We have a small neighborhood and I am almost always alone. I like tit hat way. Dont get me wrong, would be nice to have someone special there, but just isnt happening right now. It just gives me time to reflect on so many things going on in my crazy head. If you were to try and follow all my thoughts you would be dizzy. They really just dont stop. I love to reflect and ask myself what if this or what if that and if only this would happen then this would work out. Thats my mind non stop. At the pool at night its quiet and I can slow the thoughts down a tad. Its very relaxing. I feel like I have no worries in the world when I am at the pool just floating around.
I dont think I really did any particular good deed today. I did hand off a customer to another sales person, which was just the right thing to do. But we all normally do that at work. Actually now that I think about it. 3 people I sent cards to last week got them and all thanked me for them today. Company called SendOutCards makes it so easy to send real cards with real stamps and all to people. My friend Jen is a rep for them so check her out if ya wanna try it.
Read abot 30 pages in my book called " Monk and the Merchant " by Terry Felber. Great book. Its a quick read. Maybe another hour so a couple more times and I will be done. Its about people skills and life skills to be sucessful. Not your traditional stuff. Some based on biblical principles and some based on life experience in the old world. If ya wanna read it I will send it to ya. Just let me know.
I find myself driving harder and harder to get back on top of life. I almost feel like I can see the light. That day will come when I am in control and not a slave to others. I want to decide my destiny and were it will go, where I will live, where I will work and who my friends are. I want to do things my way. I want to dream big and always show people its OK to dream bigg, be un realistic with your imagination and let go of what the NORM is supposed to be. I want to help people get ahead. I have to first do it for myself and then I can go forward and make my dreams happen. So many things to do, but I have so much time left to do it in...I want to own some hotels, I want to rehab and flip houses, I want to see homeless shelters go up, I want to give people hope, I want to make lives better, I want to travel the world on a cruise, I want to live on a boat for a year, I want to give a waitress or waiter a life changing tip, I want to hand someone an amountof money that will change thier lives completely, I want to see my children enjoy life and know life is what you make it, I want my children to be proud I am their father, I want to see their dreams come to life and help make it happen for them, I want to see the Pyramids, I want to go to Russia, I want to go on a Safari, I want to feed a village, I want to Sky Dive, I want to Bungee jump, I want to live in a remote place like Alaska, I want to go to the Olympics, I want to own a Race Team both cars and Motorcycles, I want to own a Football team, I want to go to the superbowl, I want to own a Baseball team, I want my family to never want again or struggle, I want my dads issues with cancer to go away, I want my mom to be happy, I want this and so much more.
Good Night. Now ya see what I mean about my mind???? LOL.
I completely support yor effert to quit smoking. I had my last cigarette on July 28th 2005 and since then my life has change for good. Just quit , don't do the "I'm smoking less cigarettes per day" thing. Quit for good period, end of story. You can do it! You will see the difference in your life since day 1.
ReplyDeleteLong time ago I decided to be happy no matter what life brings on. Happiness is an attitude of the heart and mind but is also a personal choice. Happiness is in the simple things of life no doubt about that.The smile of a child, playing w your kids or a random act of kindness to a stranger, having a coffee in the morning, that's hapiness to me. Don't misunderstand me there's nothing wrong w having big dreams, we all have at leat one but we have to learn to be happy in the process. Maybe right now you can't go to Russia or Alaska but you can chat w a friend by the pool, having a beer, looking @ the stars and feel the happiest person alive. YOLO and you have to make the best of it, make each day counts no matter what the situations you are struggling with. Focus on what you have and all the blessings in your life. Taking care of your health should be your first priority, health is the key for everything else, getting on track w your finances is also important but enjoy and be happy in the process. "Life is like a rollercoaster w ups and downs is up to you to scream or enjoy the ride."
Thanks much. I am pretty happy with what I have now. I make do with what I got. Slow and steady it is for me. Progress 1 day at a time..
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