Well, I am back. I know ya missed me. All 5 of ya. LOL. So a few things to share today.
Watched a couple movies this weekend. Lovely Molly, nothing special and A Cabin in the Woods. It was OK. Supposed to be scary movies but just a couple gross scenes and thats about it.
Kids were here this weekend. Always a good time with them. Friday night we just grabbed some dinner and went to the house. I wasnt feeling well. Terrible headache and just icky feeling. I have cut out all sugar and it sucks. Diabetes was getting out of control so had to take action. No more Pepsi and sweet tea is not fun. So I get water, diet dew and sugar free pink lemonade. I cant stand the fake sweetners, rather just do without. Was in bed at 10. Saturday the kids had bowling league and we went to pool for a bit and then took Lexie to the store so we could get stuff for her Birthday Dinner and I let her pick a cake. We made Shrimp Alfredo with Bowtie Pasta and she got an Ice Cream Cake. We watched some movies last night and everyone was out around 11. They went home around 1 today cause I had a Jump Castle rental to set up and their momma said they left a wreck at home to clean up.
So my baby girl turned 12 on Thursday. Cant believe it has been 12 years for her. She is such an amzing little girl who isnt rushing to grow up, THANK GOD. She is in 6th grade now so she is noticing boys and she has chatted with momma about a few things. I have her holding off on make up for now. I dont mind if she wears a little, but she needs to know she is beautiful without it. I want her to be happy with who she is and not what people want her to be. I dont think any women need it to be beautiful. She is auch a good girl, she gets good grades and stays out of trouble, most of the time. lol. One more year closer to child support freedom. Ugggggghhhh.
Work has been work. Just pluggin away to get things handled best I can. Enough about that.
This is something that has ben bothering me. I was chatting with a girl via text only and everything was going well, we had even planned to meet up and hang out. Well we were having a conversation the other night and she said something about black people. It just rubbed me wrong and I dug a bit to see what she meant. She pretty much said she didnt like black people and they scared her. She said they were mean. Well I couldnt even believe she went there and had the nerve to say something so disgusting and ignorant. I tried to explain I know mean people of all races and ethnic origins. She just felt that way. Ironic part being she complains about being judged and wonders why she cant meet a "God Guy". Well duh, learn to respect all people for the person they are and not the color. I dont see people in color, I see them in compatibility. We get along or we dont. We agree or we dont. So I pretty much cut off the conversation and said good night. Next day I cut it off all together. I cant associate myself with someone who makes such ignorant statements. It would be different if this was a kid, but a grown women! Just shows how stupid and blind people can be. Hard to believe people still really think that way. I know they do, just hate to hear it. People are people, PERIOD!!!! Anyway just kinda sad. She is a sweet girl with such a narrow mindset. Gotta make some changes if she wants changes in her life.
I am still plugging away at the Pizza Cards. Have to find a better way to get in with some fundraisers. I dont have time during the day to visit and e-mail not working so great. We are trying to come up with a Golf Card as well.
NEVER PLAN A FUTURE WITH SOMEONE WHO HAS NO FUTURE PLANS FOR THEMSELVES.
Great quote I found on Facebook tonight. Sums up all the women I meet and talk to. They never have any drive to do anything with their lives. They could care less about tomorrow, much less a year or 5 from now. I ask usually pretty early on about what they dream about for the future and if they have anything they are going after in life. Honestly they act like I just said something in Russian and they have no clue what I mean. Makes me lose complete interest in them. I want someone who can dream big and has big plans for their lives. I wont settle for less. She has to support my way of thinking big and be part of trying to obtain big things with life. If not I will just stay single. I am in no hurry and dont have to settle. I just want someone to be happy with, I am not particular about material things, looks, what your past is, how many kids ya have, or if you have money. Dont be content on welfare and food stamps though. Have a plan to get off them. Anyway I could go on forever.
Alrighty I am gonna quit here. Just feel like being a bum. Gonna likely work from home tomorrow. Have plenty of paperwork I need to get done. Have to go get bloodwork in the AM. Gonna get smacked by my doctor. Well at least I am working on the sugar now. Nighty nigt peeps!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Day 26-30 Days of Revalation
Well not on here as much as I would like. Days never seem to have enough hours. Between work, kids and everything else I have my hands in, gets hard sometimes to type on here.
Another busy week at work. I am feeling a lot better about work for some reason. Its like I just finally realized that no matter how upset I get it wont change. So I do my best to keep up, try to work with what we got and hope I can get further ahead every day. For some reason we have one person there who is biggest baby in the world and all they have to do is whine and throw a chidish tantrum and they get their way. Oh well, I will fix the problem for me and roll on. Cant help ignorant people. Some things you do for the good of they people you work with whether you like it or not.
Enough of that. On another note I am trying to do a good deed daily or 2. Took roses to all the women at work today. Most seemed to enjoy it and it put a smile on their face. There are always those couple people who have resigned their life to being miserable and never smiling. Most enjoyed it though. I took out the neighbors garbage can for her. Also sent a free t-shirt to my sister. Good stuff. Almost addictive. Makes ya wanna keep doing things for people.
Have to get my sugar under control. I had not been checking it cause my battery was dead in my meter. I got one tonight. Gonna have to get on it though. I started to have some issues. Have lots of little water blisters on my hands. My hands look like crap now. I checked my sugar and it was 335. Going to up my insulin starting in the morning. Have to get it down and get healthier.
Got the kids this weekend and have to go out of town for some deliveries on Thursday. I think I may take a mental day next week, just to try and re-gain my focus at work. Have to do that every so often. I can work at home and knock out tons of paperwork when I do. Lots of stuff I have to be at the store for though. With all the ups and downs with getting my orders in pieces and not on time for my customers I am forced to do twice the work daily. Mutltiple deliveries, help produce my orders, find orders that have not arrived all instead of selling and making more money for the company and me. Get ym focus back and I will need to start prioritizing better. The systems and people you count on to make sure things are ordered, come in on time, get done on time have to much to keep up with it all. So when things are due no one notices till its late and customers are looking for it. Ok Mental day will help. :)
Didnt get much cleaning out done this past weekend cause I had kids most of it, unlike the plan we had. Ex wanted to change it. Her way or its the wrong way is how I live. Works so why change it. She is a great mom and we get along great so dont get me wrong here. We still have tiffs, rarely, but do.
OK I am ready to crash. Later then I wanted already. Got 2 people tomorrow I am going to chat with about selling my Pizza Cards. Hopefully at least one will do well with it. We will see.
Night All you amazing friends. Couldnt ask for more.......
Another busy week at work. I am feeling a lot better about work for some reason. Its like I just finally realized that no matter how upset I get it wont change. So I do my best to keep up, try to work with what we got and hope I can get further ahead every day. For some reason we have one person there who is biggest baby in the world and all they have to do is whine and throw a chidish tantrum and they get their way. Oh well, I will fix the problem for me and roll on. Cant help ignorant people. Some things you do for the good of they people you work with whether you like it or not.
Enough of that. On another note I am trying to do a good deed daily or 2. Took roses to all the women at work today. Most seemed to enjoy it and it put a smile on their face. There are always those couple people who have resigned their life to being miserable and never smiling. Most enjoyed it though. I took out the neighbors garbage can for her. Also sent a free t-shirt to my sister. Good stuff. Almost addictive. Makes ya wanna keep doing things for people.
Have to get my sugar under control. I had not been checking it cause my battery was dead in my meter. I got one tonight. Gonna have to get on it though. I started to have some issues. Have lots of little water blisters on my hands. My hands look like crap now. I checked my sugar and it was 335. Going to up my insulin starting in the morning. Have to get it down and get healthier.
Got the kids this weekend and have to go out of town for some deliveries on Thursday. I think I may take a mental day next week, just to try and re-gain my focus at work. Have to do that every so often. I can work at home and knock out tons of paperwork when I do. Lots of stuff I have to be at the store for though. With all the ups and downs with getting my orders in pieces and not on time for my customers I am forced to do twice the work daily. Mutltiple deliveries, help produce my orders, find orders that have not arrived all instead of selling and making more money for the company and me. Get ym focus back and I will need to start prioritizing better. The systems and people you count on to make sure things are ordered, come in on time, get done on time have to much to keep up with it all. So when things are due no one notices till its late and customers are looking for it. Ok Mental day will help. :)
Didnt get much cleaning out done this past weekend cause I had kids most of it, unlike the plan we had. Ex wanted to change it. Her way or its the wrong way is how I live. Works so why change it. She is a great mom and we get along great so dont get me wrong here. We still have tiffs, rarely, but do.
OK I am ready to crash. Later then I wanted already. Got 2 people tomorrow I am going to chat with about selling my Pizza Cards. Hopefully at least one will do well with it. We will see.
Night All you amazing friends. Couldnt ask for more.......
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Day 25 Productive Day
Well pretty productive day at work. Friday is gonna be a fly by the seat of my pants kind of day. I have a lot to get done and I really want it done in a short amount of time. I want to enjoy my Friday. Gonna get the kids Saturday morning till Sunday. Missed a day lat weekend so gonna make it up to them. We will surely have a great time.
Been thinking again today about all the changes I need to make. I know its baby steps, its just so hard to get the motivation to do the baby steps even. Quit smoking, diet, get healthy, work out, make more money and keep up with real job. Ugggg Will figure something out to get started with. Just so many...........
Got to talk to an old friend today. That was a hugh bonus to my day. Then had Mooses BBQ for dinner with Stephanie & Clinton. Always amazing company.
Actually had a few people comment and even send me private messages about putting so much personal stuff out there for the world to read. Nothing mean, just kinda like why do it. Lets chat a minute about this.
First and foremost I do this as an outlet for my thoughts. There are many things I dont put here and keep to only my little head. So this is for me. I am my target audience. I appreciate those who have read this to keep up with me and care enough to ask how I am. Know that I am fine. If someone doesnt like something about me then their loss. I am not looking for any one to feel sorry for me about the shit that happens to me. Plain and simple its an outlet for my thoughts. I just dont care if people know about me and what my thoughts are. I would rather them know more up front then find out later and then decide they dont want to know me.
Alrighty, I am gonna try and focus some this weekend and get myself on a better schedule to get things done I need to et done. I need to allot time to my side things, reading, and working on stuff. I still need to work on cleaning out my stuff. I have to much of it and most of it is not used. I will work on it more this weekend. I really want to try and work on my eating habits as well. So maybe clean out the closets and pantry.
I need to start back on my couponing. Some of my stash is starting to get low after a year now. Need to stock back up on some things and try to get more healthy stuff. There it is, my goals for the weekend.
Crashing early tonight, early meeting tomorrow. It should be fun.
Been thinking again today about all the changes I need to make. I know its baby steps, its just so hard to get the motivation to do the baby steps even. Quit smoking, diet, get healthy, work out, make more money and keep up with real job. Ugggg Will figure something out to get started with. Just so many...........
Got to talk to an old friend today. That was a hugh bonus to my day. Then had Mooses BBQ for dinner with Stephanie & Clinton. Always amazing company.
Actually had a few people comment and even send me private messages about putting so much personal stuff out there for the world to read. Nothing mean, just kinda like why do it. Lets chat a minute about this.
First and foremost I do this as an outlet for my thoughts. There are many things I dont put here and keep to only my little head. So this is for me. I am my target audience. I appreciate those who have read this to keep up with me and care enough to ask how I am. Know that I am fine. If someone doesnt like something about me then their loss. I am not looking for any one to feel sorry for me about the shit that happens to me. Plain and simple its an outlet for my thoughts. I just dont care if people know about me and what my thoughts are. I would rather them know more up front then find out later and then decide they dont want to know me.
Alrighty, I am gonna try and focus some this weekend and get myself on a better schedule to get things done I need to et done. I need to allot time to my side things, reading, and working on stuff. I still need to work on cleaning out my stuff. I have to much of it and most of it is not used. I will work on it more this weekend. I really want to try and work on my eating habits as well. So maybe clean out the closets and pantry.
I need to start back on my couponing. Some of my stash is starting to get low after a year now. Need to stock back up on some things and try to get more healthy stuff. There it is, my goals for the weekend.
Crashing early tonight, early meeting tomorrow. It should be fun.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Day 19-24 Oh Yeah
Well, just wanted to drop an update on ya. Couple things. May get a bit deep here. Gotta do that every now and then.
first thing is I really hate being so broke. My bank account is constantly in the hole and I dont ever have a nickel to do anything fun. Try so hard to make something work and it is always so slow or doesnt pan out. Ugggg, OK enough venting about that. Anyone wanna send me like 50K?
Next is I have been thinking more and more about being single lately. Decided I am still happy being single. A friend every now and then is nice, but I have to much going on to treat a woman how she deserves to be treated. I like making people smile and surely there is one I would marry tomorrow if the cahnce came up. Not happening though. I always fall for the wrong people. The wrong people fall for me. Hurts sometimes, but in the end its always the best path for her and me. I do someday want to give a deserving woman of my greatnes, lol, a good life. I dont know how I am going to eat somedays mch less support a relationship. Many say thats not what matters or who cares if we go out and do things, but they dont get that it means very rarely will we get to do anything. I have taught myself to be happy with doing nothing. I love texting friends, playing around via texts or even phone calls, but in the end women dont want to sit around day after day for possibly years and do nothing, because of my broke ass. No matter how much they say it dont matter. Dated a girl not to long ago and somehow she took what we had to be a relationship. She is an awesome girl, but I was clear with her from the beginning that we could only be friends. She said she understood, me being busy or time with my kids being first, but I could tell it bothered her if I didnt have time for her. Sorry, but thats how it is sometimes. She ended up hurt even asing why I broke up with her. I never new we were exclusive. We were not is the point. She took sex to mean boyfriend and girlfriend. It didnt matter how many times I said we were not a couple. I hate that she was hurt. It really sucked we couldnt be friends. Sexx was just fun for us to me and she took it to mean more. I really am upfront and honets when it comes to that. Sex, dont take my man card, is not that important to me. I can handle that alone, but its just an extra that is really fun to me. It can mean something with the right person. And sometimes it does, but was not supposed to in this case. OK, enough about this I jus want to make people happy and let them know someone cares and that not everyone is out for one thing. Cause I am really not.
I recently found myself falling for a girl and in all angles it was not happening. Well now its reality that its not happening. HUrt pretty good. What would such a beautiul established girl see in me and why take such a leap for me. Someday it may be something and someday just happens to be when I am willing to make try and work something out. I need to be financially secure and stable. To many shitty days for me now. I ate cereal, rice and cup of noodles for my meals monday. Clinton took me to dinner at mexican on top of a bowl of cereal yesterday. Just gets tough every now and then. I hate money. Why cant we just hae what we want. Ugggg. I am not upset, cause I didnt need to eat out and at least I had something to eat. Hate though that when a friend calls to go ea with him I have to say I am broke and cant go. Just really sucks.
OK enough ranting about that. I am really content with what I have. I have my kids and I ge to see them very often. They are the most omportant things in the world to me. Dont take this as bitching, just a forum for me to lay out my thoughts.
On anpther note, Alyssa Milano is just amazing. Whos the Boss re runs is on. Wow!!!I always loved her. Between her, Drew Barrymore, and Angelina Jolie I would marry any of them. Yummy. Night peeps!!!!!!!!
first thing is I really hate being so broke. My bank account is constantly in the hole and I dont ever have a nickel to do anything fun. Try so hard to make something work and it is always so slow or doesnt pan out. Ugggg, OK enough venting about that. Anyone wanna send me like 50K?
Next is I have been thinking more and more about being single lately. Decided I am still happy being single. A friend every now and then is nice, but I have to much going on to treat a woman how she deserves to be treated. I like making people smile and surely there is one I would marry tomorrow if the cahnce came up. Not happening though. I always fall for the wrong people. The wrong people fall for me. Hurts sometimes, but in the end its always the best path for her and me. I do someday want to give a deserving woman of my greatnes, lol, a good life. I dont know how I am going to eat somedays mch less support a relationship. Many say thats not what matters or who cares if we go out and do things, but they dont get that it means very rarely will we get to do anything. I have taught myself to be happy with doing nothing. I love texting friends, playing around via texts or even phone calls, but in the end women dont want to sit around day after day for possibly years and do nothing, because of my broke ass. No matter how much they say it dont matter. Dated a girl not to long ago and somehow she took what we had to be a relationship. She is an awesome girl, but I was clear with her from the beginning that we could only be friends. She said she understood, me being busy or time with my kids being first, but I could tell it bothered her if I didnt have time for her. Sorry, but thats how it is sometimes. She ended up hurt even asing why I broke up with her. I never new we were exclusive. We were not is the point. She took sex to mean boyfriend and girlfriend. It didnt matter how many times I said we were not a couple. I hate that she was hurt. It really sucked we couldnt be friends. Sexx was just fun for us to me and she took it to mean more. I really am upfront and honets when it comes to that. Sex, dont take my man card, is not that important to me. I can handle that alone, but its just an extra that is really fun to me. It can mean something with the right person. And sometimes it does, but was not supposed to in this case. OK, enough about this I jus want to make people happy and let them know someone cares and that not everyone is out for one thing. Cause I am really not.
I recently found myself falling for a girl and in all angles it was not happening. Well now its reality that its not happening. HUrt pretty good. What would such a beautiul established girl see in me and why take such a leap for me. Someday it may be something and someday just happens to be when I am willing to make try and work something out. I need to be financially secure and stable. To many shitty days for me now. I ate cereal, rice and cup of noodles for my meals monday. Clinton took me to dinner at mexican on top of a bowl of cereal yesterday. Just gets tough every now and then. I hate money. Why cant we just hae what we want. Ugggg. I am not upset, cause I didnt need to eat out and at least I had something to eat. Hate though that when a friend calls to go ea with him I have to say I am broke and cant go. Just really sucks.
OK enough ranting about that. I am really content with what I have. I have my kids and I ge to see them very often. They are the most omportant things in the world to me. Dont take this as bitching, just a forum for me to lay out my thoughts.
On anpther note, Alyssa Milano is just amazing. Whos the Boss re runs is on. Wow!!!I always loved her. Between her, Drew Barrymore, and Angelina Jolie I would marry any of them. Yummy. Night peeps!!!!!!!!
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Day 14-18 Hell Week
Well as much as I need to try and get some sleep, I felt like clearing my mind for a few on here. Today was not a great day. Work is non stop and the worst part is I have to produce orders for myself and I am npt producing sales wise. I work for commission and my pay is based on what I sell. It just doesnt make sense to have sales staff filling the roles in production. Anyway, enough about that. From what I can see it will not change.
My prayer tonight is that everyone finds peace, happiness and joy in their lives. Do whats right, regardless of how it feels to do whats wrong. It can be a tough lesson to learn the hard way. I have always said there are many things to believe in and that are worth fighting for. Fight the good fight and be happy that you fought it. A lesson I need to learn to live by as well. Stand up for what you believe in, speak your mind and resolve all differences. I told my kids a while back a lesson I always want them to remember. Its to never go to bed mad at anyone or with a heavy heart. You never know who may not wake up in the morning. Be at peace with your life and everyone in it. Let life wive out its course and enjoy the ride. You never know where the journey will take you. Some things are meant to be this way or that way.
Will be a hectic day again Friday and then I have the kids this weekend. I love my babies so much and want so much for them. They are the best kids ever.
Ok, enough of that. Good night to all my awesome and amazing friends. I really hope life gives you what you deserve and truly desire. If I can help it along in anyway please feel free to let me know. Thanks for being my friend.
My prayer tonight is that everyone finds peace, happiness and joy in their lives. Do whats right, regardless of how it feels to do whats wrong. It can be a tough lesson to learn the hard way. I have always said there are many things to believe in and that are worth fighting for. Fight the good fight and be happy that you fought it. A lesson I need to learn to live by as well. Stand up for what you believe in, speak your mind and resolve all differences. I told my kids a while back a lesson I always want them to remember. Its to never go to bed mad at anyone or with a heavy heart. You never know who may not wake up in the morning. Be at peace with your life and everyone in it. Let life wive out its course and enjoy the ride. You never know where the journey will take you. Some things are meant to be this way or that way.
Will be a hectic day again Friday and then I have the kids this weekend. I love my babies so much and want so much for them. They are the best kids ever.
Ok, enough of that. Good night to all my awesome and amazing friends. I really hope life gives you what you deserve and truly desire. If I can help it along in anyway please feel free to let me know. Thanks for being my friend.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Day 12 & 13 Couple Long Days
Well Friday was a very welcome day. It was another long day worked till almost 7. Was pretty beat athe end of the day. Went and got some wings and had a couple beers and crashed by 11 last night. Here is the fun part. I slept till after 11. Wow, I was really tired. Been a long week. Had to jump up and go set up a Jump Castle with Clinton, then we went and had Mexican for lunch today. Time we finished lunch and I went to get a prescription filled for my blood pressure medicine, the family called and wanted to have it picked up early because party was over. No problem there, means less of my night wasted. Or so I thought at least. I grabbed a nice cool shower, cause it was hot as hell outside and I sweat like crazy, layed down to cool off and relax and dozed for an hour at least. Finally got up to go grab some dinner around 8. Then went and hung out at Barnes & Noble for a couple hours. Just like to look for new books and read a little bit. Pretty relaxing. I want a Nook Color something terrible. They even went down to $150. Anyone who wants to get me a gift I will love ya forever. :)
So as you can see all my sleep today has me up late doing nothing. Other then this stuff I reflected a bit today on what I hope for in the future. Day by Day is the way to do it, but hard not to think about what might be or could be somewhere down the road. Even if it is months or years. I always dream big so wouldnt expect any less of myself. Keep going and think about the present seems to work best. I beat myself up mainly because the moment is not where I expected to be at this moment. It kinda kills me that I am almost 40 and can not yet see myself being sucessful at something business wise, financially secure and controlling my destiny. I still have some time for sure, so we will see. Just takes one thing to happen and life can change in a moment. For the good or the bad....
Hope its for the good. Well, i am gonna lay down for the night and dream about what could be someday. I know dreams come true for many, when is it my turn? Rock on people of my blog world. Love ya bunches;)
So as you can see all my sleep today has me up late doing nothing. Other then this stuff I reflected a bit today on what I hope for in the future. Day by Day is the way to do it, but hard not to think about what might be or could be somewhere down the road. Even if it is months or years. I always dream big so wouldnt expect any less of myself. Keep going and think about the present seems to work best. I beat myself up mainly because the moment is not where I expected to be at this moment. It kinda kills me that I am almost 40 and can not yet see myself being sucessful at something business wise, financially secure and controlling my destiny. I still have some time for sure, so we will see. Just takes one thing to happen and life can change in a moment. For the good or the bad....
Hope its for the good. Well, i am gonna lay down for the night and dream about what could be someday. I know dreams come true for many, when is it my turn? Rock on people of my blog world. Love ya bunches;)
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Day 10 & 11 Almost FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!
Been a pretty good day for the most part. Things went pretty well as planned today. That makes for a good day. I also got a message from the owner of the Pizza Place I have been going after for my Pizza Cards and he is all in with them. So awesome and the school will love it as well. Really is one of the best pizza places around. So hopefully in the next few weeks I will have my first hugh fundraiser under way. Such a fun concept.... Tomorrow is yet to come so we will see. It all depends on production at work getting things done I have to deliver. They are so slammed right now its just nuts. Just a matter of where my orders fall in line....
Got to chat a bunch with a friend today and tonight. Always a plus. Went to dinner with 2 of my Best Friends here at Mooses BBQ. Always good stuff. They are such great people.
Have a Jump Castle set up on Saturday. Glad its been renting out pretty decent lately. peoples faces light up when you show up to put up a jump castle. Kids think your the best thing ever. LOL.
Alrighty, Just for fun. Here is a clue to my code. A=F and its 3 words. Good luck thats more then enough with a little effort. The person who wants this info will know.
Well 3 day weekend to do nothing. Will be so nice to forget about work for a few days. Gonna be at least one more hectic one scranbling to get things done on time. Hopefully we can breathe a bit after this week. We will see.
Gotta get up early again. Time to crash. Good Night and Love ya!!
Got to chat a bunch with a friend today and tonight. Always a plus. Went to dinner with 2 of my Best Friends here at Mooses BBQ. Always good stuff. They are such great people.
Have a Jump Castle set up on Saturday. Glad its been renting out pretty decent lately. peoples faces light up when you show up to put up a jump castle. Kids think your the best thing ever. LOL.
Alrighty, Just for fun. Here is a clue to my code. A=F and its 3 words. Good luck thats more then enough with a little effort. The person who wants this info will know.
Well 3 day weekend to do nothing. Will be so nice to forget about work for a few days. Gonna be at least one more hectic one scranbling to get things done on time. Hopefully we can breathe a bit after this week. We will see.
Gotta get up early again. Time to crash. Good Night and Love ya!!
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Day 9 Is it Friday Yet?
Insert thoughts here........I really dont have much to say today. Plenty of thoughts and really no positive ones. Annoyed.........I will be fine like always. When does it get old just being fine. Where is the line that you someday get to jump across and not be fine. I surely try my ass off to get ahead and it dont fricken work. Put it in Gods hands, Think positive, keep trying, Keep your head up, Someday something good will happen, You deserve someone, Things will be OK. All surely are novel thoughts. Where is the reality? When do I get to enjoy life with no worries?
Please no one freak out or worry about me. I do enough for everyone. I will really be fine, just crappy day for thoughts and my mind is going crazy. I am aloud to have negative thoughts on occasion and I keep a blog to throw them out there and get it off my mind. Thats all. Life will go on just like it always does and someday we all will die. I just hope I get to see a good worry free day before it happens to me. I am actually really going to sart my own website this weekend for donations to Give A Life to Eric. Just a buck. If a bus driver can get $700,000 for sympathy why cant I just get $100,000?
Anyway, night. Sorry and thanks for letting me vent. Please know I am normally a very positive person and try to look at the good things. Just didnt work out today and tomorrow will likely be just fine. Not looking for pitty here or to worry anyone. No one obviously has the answer to when it will all be better and worry free. So no need to answer that.
Please no one freak out or worry about me. I do enough for everyone. I will really be fine, just crappy day for thoughts and my mind is going crazy. I am aloud to have negative thoughts on occasion and I keep a blog to throw them out there and get it off my mind. Thats all. Life will go on just like it always does and someday we all will die. I just hope I get to see a good worry free day before it happens to me. I am actually really going to sart my own website this weekend for donations to Give A Life to Eric. Just a buck. If a bus driver can get $700,000 for sympathy why cant I just get $100,000?
Anyway, night. Sorry and thanks for letting me vent. Please know I am normally a very positive person and try to look at the good things. Just didnt work out today and tomorrow will likely be just fine. Not looking for pitty here or to worry anyone. No one obviously has the answer to when it will all be better and worry free. So no need to answer that.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Day 8 Well....Boring Day
Today was just a boring ass day. I got a lot done at work. OF course I can always count on a coach to screw it up and make stupid requests. I know it takes 2 weeks and I know you are busy, but drop the entire world and pay attention to me and screw everyone else, I am more important. This has to be how some people think. I am very respectful to my customers and have a great relationship with most all of them. Some just dont have any mutual respect for my time or job.
OK enough ranting. Gonna be a long next couple weeks till Rec football starts. Gonna be some late nights this week and next. Seems we have more work then man power to get it done. It woul dblow you rmind how much stuff needs to be done in the next couple weeks at work. Still kinda puzzles me when people still get off work, take a day off and leave early even though there is more work then they can handle getting done on time. I ran our trophies department for a bit and I would not leave at night till my work was done or they made me leave. I could not stand to be behind and miss deadlines. Guess I just look at things different then most. Dont get me wrong, there are a couple people who show true dedication and Get it Done attitudes, but not enough of them.
Here is the dumb shit I think about. There are 313,000,000 people in the USA. If I can get 50,000 of them to send me a buck I would be on track financiall. Just 150,000 of them and I would be able to have all I need and be debt free. Seems so simple. Maybe I will start a site. Donate a Dollar to Eric. Can you even send 1.00 with PayPal? Maybe donate a quarter and hope for 200,000 people to donate and mail me a quarter. Maybe there is a way to make this a fun game that could go viral or something. Need a cam so I can make videos to maybe attract some attention. Ever seen the show Barter Kings. I wanna do that too. Trade from something stupid to something awesome and worth alot to sell and be set. Rinse and repeat. LOL. Look up Red Paperclip story. Guy trades his way from a Red Paperclip up to a house. Anything is possible!!!!!!!! What crazy things do you think of?
Tomorrow promises to be another day of running like a mad man and making deliveries. Been a boring couple days for sure. At least I have my Words with friends ;) Its surely a fun game. Something to look forward to. :) On that note, good night people. Love ya Bunches :)
OK enough ranting. Gonna be a long next couple weeks till Rec football starts. Gonna be some late nights this week and next. Seems we have more work then man power to get it done. It woul dblow you rmind how much stuff needs to be done in the next couple weeks at work. Still kinda puzzles me when people still get off work, take a day off and leave early even though there is more work then they can handle getting done on time. I ran our trophies department for a bit and I would not leave at night till my work was done or they made me leave. I could not stand to be behind and miss deadlines. Guess I just look at things different then most. Dont get me wrong, there are a couple people who show true dedication and Get it Done attitudes, but not enough of them.
Here is the dumb shit I think about. There are 313,000,000 people in the USA. If I can get 50,000 of them to send me a buck I would be on track financiall. Just 150,000 of them and I would be able to have all I need and be debt free. Seems so simple. Maybe I will start a site. Donate a Dollar to Eric. Can you even send 1.00 with PayPal? Maybe donate a quarter and hope for 200,000 people to donate and mail me a quarter. Maybe there is a way to make this a fun game that could go viral or something. Need a cam so I can make videos to maybe attract some attention. Ever seen the show Barter Kings. I wanna do that too. Trade from something stupid to something awesome and worth alot to sell and be set. Rinse and repeat. LOL. Look up Red Paperclip story. Guy trades his way from a Red Paperclip up to a house. Anything is possible!!!!!!!! What crazy things do you think of?
Tomorrow promises to be another day of running like a mad man and making deliveries. Been a boring couple days for sure. At least I have my Words with friends ;) Its surely a fun game. Something to look forward to. :) On that note, good night people. Love ya Bunches :)
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Day 5, 6 and 7 What a Weekend
Well Friday was a hectic day. Got the kiddo's for the weekend. They had a school dance which they had a blast at. Was glad to see them have such a good time. Me and Lexie went to the Goose Creek HIgh School opening football game. They are right next to my house. They also happen to be the State Champions. As well as an account of mine for work. They crushed Ashley Ridge High School. It was like a date night with my baby girl. Prety cool. Claytons head was hurtng from jammimg to such loud music at his dance. So he laid around the house with roomie and his daughters. Saturday we all just ran around a bunch, I went and got screen protectors for their Nooks and that costed $20. What a scam. Almost made me mad. Just for a piece of plastic. I had a headache most of the day. Kids were pretty understanding and let me rest a bit. We went for a late night swim around 8 or so. Thats always nice and relaxing.
Sundays are usually a scramble to get the house cleaned up, all their laundry done and packed up, and get them ready to go home. We went to get a desk for Lexie's room and grabbed a good lunch at Kickin Chickin in Summerville. I love my kiddo'd so much. Wish they never had to leave and go home. Someday I will be able to spend every minute I can with them. I will be able to work a little hear and there and spend the whole summer with them, maybe take them places I never got to go. Someday.........
I went to Steel City Pizza to catch manager and see if I can get him on my Pizza Card. GM wasnt there but assistant said he will share with him and owners. Iw ill call tomorrow to see if they got it. Really hoping they come on board. It could be hugh for the fundraiser I have in the works. If I dont get them on board the fundraiser may be a no go. Could be very iportant and life changing to see this move forward. So hope that works out.
As far as the rest of the night goes, just gonna crash early. Best of luck to ya:) Have a good night.
Sundays are usually a scramble to get the house cleaned up, all their laundry done and packed up, and get them ready to go home. We went to get a desk for Lexie's room and grabbed a good lunch at Kickin Chickin in Summerville. I love my kiddo'd so much. Wish they never had to leave and go home. Someday I will be able to spend every minute I can with them. I will be able to work a little hear and there and spend the whole summer with them, maybe take them places I never got to go. Someday.........
I went to Steel City Pizza to catch manager and see if I can get him on my Pizza Card. GM wasnt there but assistant said he will share with him and owners. Iw ill call tomorrow to see if they got it. Really hoping they come on board. It could be hugh for the fundraiser I have in the works. If I dont get them on board the fundraiser may be a no go. Could be very iportant and life changing to see this move forward. So hope that works out.
As far as the rest of the night goes, just gonna crash early. Best of luck to ya:) Have a good night.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Day 4 Almost The Weekend!!!!
Well, pretty tired tonight. So this will be brief. I think I have said that before. Anyway, Work was just work today. I actuall accomplished quite a bit of paperwork. Never see to get ahead but staying on top of things.
Had dinner with Clinton & Stephanie at Moose's BBQ tonight. Yummy stuff. Kids have a dance tomorrow at school so I have to get them from there at 5:30. Clayton is an 8th grader and Lexie a 6th grader. So Lexies first middle school dance. I went with Clayton to one last year and most kids were just sitting around in the cafateria talking in their little clicks. Probably show up a little early to check things out.
Have not worked much on the things I wanted to like eating better and quitting smoking today or any physical fitness stuff. Just never feels like enough hours in the day to do something. So hard to eat right on the run all the time. Its whatever I can eat and drive alot of days. Oh well, will start again trying harder.
I have been forgetting to list something I am thankful for in my posts. Well I guess I actually have with talking about the friends I am thankful for. I am thankful for so many things and so many people. The last couple weeks have been very uplifting and fun for sure. Crazy hectic, but you always make time for a text or quick call. I am thankful for those things. I used to always post my number for people to text me at random. Its 843-817-7538. Always fun to chat with new people. Some more then others. LOL.
I do however miss home a bunch this past couple weeks. Miss being near my friends and family there. I always seem to find things out either on Facebook or days after they happen. I wish I was there with them all and especially my GOOD friends. :)
Let me chat about another thing I do really quick. I already mentioned the Main Job in my last post and talked about Jump Castles and Snow Cone business. Next I have what I call The Pizza Card. Its a plastic card good for 20 free pizzas at a local pizza place. Basics of it is I get a pizza place to offer a deal I can put on it for 20 free pizza's. The deal is a bit flexible, but has to be 20 Free Pizza's. So they Place I have now is offering a Free Medium 1-Topping Pizza with the purchae of a large specialty pizza. You can up the freebie to a large 1 topping for $2.00. So the first hurdle was finding a pizza place to let me do this. What do they have to gain. They get a customer who will come in at least 20 times to buy a large pizza. If they upgrade it covers the cost of the free pizza. Many tmes they will add topping as well. Its advertising that they dont pay for unless it brings customers in. Completely free to the pizza place. I printed the cards and now the second part is selling the cards. Retail on them is $10. Goal is to get fundraisers to sell them for $10 and they pay me $3 a piece when they are done the selling spree. So I mainly market to schools. I have one school thinking of doing it with 340 kids that will be selling them. Could be in the thousands. They will make a ton, I buy super nice gifts for top sellers, like laptop, ipad, kindle or Nooks, and so on depending on total sales. Have to get one particular Pizza Place if this high school will do it. Having trouble reaching them. Will have to get creative. Other options to sell them is just hire people to walk around and sell around the locations at busy spots. They sell for $10 and keep $6 Hit 100 cards in a week and keep $7 per card. So thats my idea. Well I saw someone else doing it online. I will have 500 cards for my first pizza place in my hands tomorrow. Its for Papa Murphy's and they have 5 locations they are good at around Charleston. When a customer comes in they simply punch one of the 20 mini pizza's out until card is gone. Gonna set up a simple page site as well for people to come back later to get cards from. Will have all them for all the places I sign up. This will be for direct sales. Will just have website on cards. Going to venture to a Sub Sandwich card and a Golf Card as well sooner or later. Anyone has a fundraiser they wanna do let me know and I can help. Can do this anywhere.
OK, have to get up early for meeting at work. We meet on Fridays at 8:15 with owners and sales staff. Good night everyone. Sweet Dreams and Love you bunches. :)
Had dinner with Clinton & Stephanie at Moose's BBQ tonight. Yummy stuff. Kids have a dance tomorrow at school so I have to get them from there at 5:30. Clayton is an 8th grader and Lexie a 6th grader. So Lexies first middle school dance. I went with Clayton to one last year and most kids were just sitting around in the cafateria talking in their little clicks. Probably show up a little early to check things out.
Have not worked much on the things I wanted to like eating better and quitting smoking today or any physical fitness stuff. Just never feels like enough hours in the day to do something. So hard to eat right on the run all the time. Its whatever I can eat and drive alot of days. Oh well, will start again trying harder.
I have been forgetting to list something I am thankful for in my posts. Well I guess I actually have with talking about the friends I am thankful for. I am thankful for so many things and so many people. The last couple weeks have been very uplifting and fun for sure. Crazy hectic, but you always make time for a text or quick call. I am thankful for those things. I used to always post my number for people to text me at random. Its 843-817-7538. Always fun to chat with new people. Some more then others. LOL.
I do however miss home a bunch this past couple weeks. Miss being near my friends and family there. I always seem to find things out either on Facebook or days after they happen. I wish I was there with them all and especially my GOOD friends. :)
Let me chat about another thing I do really quick. I already mentioned the Main Job in my last post and talked about Jump Castles and Snow Cone business. Next I have what I call The Pizza Card. Its a plastic card good for 20 free pizzas at a local pizza place. Basics of it is I get a pizza place to offer a deal I can put on it for 20 free pizza's. The deal is a bit flexible, but has to be 20 Free Pizza's. So they Place I have now is offering a Free Medium 1-Topping Pizza with the purchae of a large specialty pizza. You can up the freebie to a large 1 topping for $2.00. So the first hurdle was finding a pizza place to let me do this. What do they have to gain. They get a customer who will come in at least 20 times to buy a large pizza. If they upgrade it covers the cost of the free pizza. Many tmes they will add topping as well. Its advertising that they dont pay for unless it brings customers in. Completely free to the pizza place. I printed the cards and now the second part is selling the cards. Retail on them is $10. Goal is to get fundraisers to sell them for $10 and they pay me $3 a piece when they are done the selling spree. So I mainly market to schools. I have one school thinking of doing it with 340 kids that will be selling them. Could be in the thousands. They will make a ton, I buy super nice gifts for top sellers, like laptop, ipad, kindle or Nooks, and so on depending on total sales. Have to get one particular Pizza Place if this high school will do it. Having trouble reaching them. Will have to get creative. Other options to sell them is just hire people to walk around and sell around the locations at busy spots. They sell for $10 and keep $6 Hit 100 cards in a week and keep $7 per card. So thats my idea. Well I saw someone else doing it online. I will have 500 cards for my first pizza place in my hands tomorrow. Its for Papa Murphy's and they have 5 locations they are good at around Charleston. When a customer comes in they simply punch one of the 20 mini pizza's out until card is gone. Gonna set up a simple page site as well for people to come back later to get cards from. Will have all them for all the places I sign up. This will be for direct sales. Will just have website on cards. Going to venture to a Sub Sandwich card and a Golf Card as well sooner or later. Anyone has a fundraiser they wanna do let me know and I can help. Can do this anywhere.
OK, have to get up early for meeting at work. We meet on Fridays at 8:15 with owners and sales staff. Good night everyone. Sweet Dreams and Love you bunches. :)
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Day 3 Just Another Busy Day
Well, another day down till......... Uh yeah. LOL. Good day in general. Stayed and worked a bit late tonight and for that treated myself to some wings at Hooters. The really do have the best wings!!!! Always some great conversation with a friend, well texts at least. Magic 8 Balls seem to be very in decisive. Not sure I spelled that right. Dont care really.
One thing I want to put out there is I really am happy and dont beat myself up all the time. I know life is tough some times and I am good with that. Life is surely getting better and better everyday. One step at a time. This blog is a way for me to put it out there for people to get a taste of my life. I am always intrigued to read about others lives and hope some enjoy reading about mine. I will have struggles, I will have ups and downs and likely will talk about them. I was very excited that someof the attention from this blog has brought me closer to a couple of my good life long friends. Love you all!!!!!
With that said I wanted to chat about my real job tonight. Then all the extra stuff another night. I work as an outside sales rep for a sporting goods store. We sell sporting uniforms and equipment to schools and rec departments and really anyone all over the Charleston and surrounding areas. I have some great accounts and love what I do. The company has some challenges at times that can be scary. They are pretty old school about things and dont really like to bring things into the current times. This puts us behind in some cases. I have many aopinions about changes that could make the company so much better and profitable, but just not gonna happen. Its typically a waste of breath. I do OK and I have tons of flexibility with my job. I get to work at home sometimes and set my schedule. Long as I am selling its all good. It allows me more time with my kids and to take part in more of their life events. Its not enough money to get ahead and barely enough to keep up most of the time. After a year in outside sales thats getting better. I plug away and enjoy the time there. There is really a few great people I work with and am very lucky to have met. So enough of that, blah, blah, blah. Its a job and for that I am very thankful!!!!
Second thing is a quick one to talk about. My friend Clinton has a jump castle biz and I have a snowcone machine we rent out as well. He pays me to help him do the set-ups. I also have done events with selling snow cones and rented it out as well. Its not very time consuming at this point. Extra cash is always good.
What do all my side jobs have to do with everything. Well my goal is to work for myself, when I want and on some sort of semi automated nusiness or a business I can oversee and pay others to run for me.
Wore patch today and still smoked about 5 cigarettes. Gonna be a togh one. Easy to say just quit and then someone at work pushes me so far and I just have to bite my tongue and walk away to get my composure. At which point I want to smoke. Hard to accomplish anything productive when I have to work till 8:30 at night, run to grab something to eat, go home, take meds, get settled in and then its almost 10pm. Again slow and steady it will go. Progress a small bit at a time.
Couple quickie side notes. I love Words With Friends and Angry Birds. I wish I could et a Nook Color or Kindle Fire to play them on. Would be great for books as well. :) If anyone cant decide on a gift for me then there ya go. Thanks in advance for such an awesome gift. HaHa.
I forgot one of my Bestest friends Kevin from when I was in the Marines. We did everything together and surely had a blast doing it. We always had each others backs and looked out for each other. We probably could have been dead or jailed many times for some of our infamous party stunts or acts. Some of which we had to be told about the next day. We drank alot together. More then you could surely imagine. A brother in the Marines is a bond that will always be there. Thanks Kevin for helping me keep my head up and caring enogh to check in on me. Looks like he may be planning a skydiving trip for us and I will get to cross that off my bucket list. I need to starta ucket list. Listed most of it in previous blog a couple days ago. Anyway I wanted to mention him and note he surely was part of an exciting time in my life. The Marines simply would not have been the same without him.
Alrighty, I am gonna crash or at least lay down. Thanks for reading. Likely another long day tomorow. Wonder what amazign thing a coach will throw at me tomorrow. Bring it. Night Everyone!!!!!
No real good deeds today, but none bad either.
Eric
One thing I want to put out there is I really am happy and dont beat myself up all the time. I know life is tough some times and I am good with that. Life is surely getting better and better everyday. One step at a time. This blog is a way for me to put it out there for people to get a taste of my life. I am always intrigued to read about others lives and hope some enjoy reading about mine. I will have struggles, I will have ups and downs and likely will talk about them. I was very excited that someof the attention from this blog has brought me closer to a couple of my good life long friends. Love you all!!!!!
With that said I wanted to chat about my real job tonight. Then all the extra stuff another night. I work as an outside sales rep for a sporting goods store. We sell sporting uniforms and equipment to schools and rec departments and really anyone all over the Charleston and surrounding areas. I have some great accounts and love what I do. The company has some challenges at times that can be scary. They are pretty old school about things and dont really like to bring things into the current times. This puts us behind in some cases. I have many aopinions about changes that could make the company so much better and profitable, but just not gonna happen. Its typically a waste of breath. I do OK and I have tons of flexibility with my job. I get to work at home sometimes and set my schedule. Long as I am selling its all good. It allows me more time with my kids and to take part in more of their life events. Its not enough money to get ahead and barely enough to keep up most of the time. After a year in outside sales thats getting better. I plug away and enjoy the time there. There is really a few great people I work with and am very lucky to have met. So enough of that, blah, blah, blah. Its a job and for that I am very thankful!!!!
Second thing is a quick one to talk about. My friend Clinton has a jump castle biz and I have a snowcone machine we rent out as well. He pays me to help him do the set-ups. I also have done events with selling snow cones and rented it out as well. Its not very time consuming at this point. Extra cash is always good.
What do all my side jobs have to do with everything. Well my goal is to work for myself, when I want and on some sort of semi automated nusiness or a business I can oversee and pay others to run for me.
Wore patch today and still smoked about 5 cigarettes. Gonna be a togh one. Easy to say just quit and then someone at work pushes me so far and I just have to bite my tongue and walk away to get my composure. At which point I want to smoke. Hard to accomplish anything productive when I have to work till 8:30 at night, run to grab something to eat, go home, take meds, get settled in and then its almost 10pm. Again slow and steady it will go. Progress a small bit at a time.
Couple quickie side notes. I love Words With Friends and Angry Birds. I wish I could et a Nook Color or Kindle Fire to play them on. Would be great for books as well. :) If anyone cant decide on a gift for me then there ya go. Thanks in advance for such an awesome gift. HaHa.
I forgot one of my Bestest friends Kevin from when I was in the Marines. We did everything together and surely had a blast doing it. We always had each others backs and looked out for each other. We probably could have been dead or jailed many times for some of our infamous party stunts or acts. Some of which we had to be told about the next day. We drank alot together. More then you could surely imagine. A brother in the Marines is a bond that will always be there. Thanks Kevin for helping me keep my head up and caring enogh to check in on me. Looks like he may be planning a skydiving trip for us and I will get to cross that off my bucket list. I need to starta ucket list. Listed most of it in previous blog a couple days ago. Anyway I wanted to mention him and note he surely was part of an exciting time in my life. The Marines simply would not have been the same without him.
Alrighty, I am gonna crash or at least lay down. Thanks for reading. Likely another long day tomorow. Wonder what amazign thing a coach will throw at me tomorrow. Bring it. Night Everyone!!!!!
No real good deeds today, but none bad either.
Eric
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Day 2 Hectic Day
Well I didnt plan on being up so late tonight either, but here I am. 11:45 and not in bed yet. This will be a quickie. As always for the past week a good friend keeps me smiling and brightens my day. Sophie B Hakins is still Awesome!!!! LOL. Next was a surprise call from my old buddy Steve from back in school in MD. We have been best of friends for to many years to count. Have lost touch over the years but tonight was like we never left. I think we could have talked for hours, but both of us with dying cell phones and work in the morning had to go. I hope to grow old around my closest friends and family from my life. I only have a handful of really close friends who know everything about me. Who lived most of my younger years with me. They know who they are. I hope one day we will all be living close and can hang out more often and grow old around each other. I have a couple amazing friends here in Charleston who without them my life would truly have fell apart. They know who they are as well. Also a recent new friend, who I suspect will be a life long friend as well, regardless of what path things take. All these people have been such great parts of my life over the years. Steves call tonight was so great.
Well I will just list them all. These people are amazing and people I would consider some of the best friends I have ever had. First is my brother Brandon. We have always been like best friends, many challenges over the years, not always agreeing on things, but great friends none the less. Dont get me wrong. My other brother Jason and my sister Stephanie are awesome people. Just we were never as close as me and Brandon. Along with his wife Penny who is a truly amazing woman. My buddies from High School Steve, Donny, Daryl and George. I also want to mention a younger friend Eddie who goes way back with me. We were very tight in the younger years... Then I have friends here in Charleston, my roomie is one of the most awesome guys ya will ever meet, Rafael and then the friends I made in a small group from church Clinton and Stephanie who have helped me keep my focus and keep my head on straight through some really tough periods. They truly set the example of how people should live their lives.
I dwell a bunch on the past and miss those days for sure.
Today was just a hectic day at work. So many people have no respect for others time. Just because you failed to plan ahead, it shouldnt make my life a challenge. In the end, my 2 awesome phone calls, were the best end to a day ever. I dont recall an necessarily good deeds today in particular. Didnt get to read anything or do any sort of physical activity. I did smoke several times today. I think it was 5. I forgot to put my patch on this morning. I will get there. Baby steps and a little progress everyday is the goal.
I need to get some dental work done this month. Kind of hurting a bit. Been way to many years. I hope to get a little done at the end of the month, depending on how my check pans out for the month. Really need a good cleaning and probably a couple just yanked out in the back. Probably have to be a little bit here and there.
Truck is limping around as well. Gonna have to figure something out before to long. Hopefully something will come through for me to be able to afford a new vehicle. Someone want to buy me a new truck? Love ya forever. LOL.
Hopefully I can go into more details about some particular aspect of things I have going on in my life in my next few blogs. Just tired tonight.
I have been adding things up in my head of what it would take to get me ON TRACK in my finacial world. This would include my own home and new vehicle and many old debts or obligatrions I owe on. Just need maybe $150,000. Figuring I could get a decent home for $100,000 around here. So $50, 000 would be the main part I need first to clear everything up and get a vehicle. It would give me a clean slate. Anyone wanna donate to the Eric Fund? HaHa, slow and steady and it will come....There are over 300 Million people in the US. Figure I should be able to get at least 50,000 people to send me a buck. Sounds simple. LOL. Hmmmmmmm
I hope to have more things on track by weeks end. Have kids this weekend and we are gonna do something fun. Always brightens my day to hang out with them. I miss them everyday....Thanks for reading tonight peeps. Sorry not to exciting.
Well I will just list them all. These people are amazing and people I would consider some of the best friends I have ever had. First is my brother Brandon. We have always been like best friends, many challenges over the years, not always agreeing on things, but great friends none the less. Dont get me wrong. My other brother Jason and my sister Stephanie are awesome people. Just we were never as close as me and Brandon. Along with his wife Penny who is a truly amazing woman. My buddies from High School Steve, Donny, Daryl and George. I also want to mention a younger friend Eddie who goes way back with me. We were very tight in the younger years... Then I have friends here in Charleston, my roomie is one of the most awesome guys ya will ever meet, Rafael and then the friends I made in a small group from church Clinton and Stephanie who have helped me keep my focus and keep my head on straight through some really tough periods. They truly set the example of how people should live their lives.
I dwell a bunch on the past and miss those days for sure.
Today was just a hectic day at work. So many people have no respect for others time. Just because you failed to plan ahead, it shouldnt make my life a challenge. In the end, my 2 awesome phone calls, were the best end to a day ever. I dont recall an necessarily good deeds today in particular. Didnt get to read anything or do any sort of physical activity. I did smoke several times today. I think it was 5. I forgot to put my patch on this morning. I will get there. Baby steps and a little progress everyday is the goal.
I need to get some dental work done this month. Kind of hurting a bit. Been way to many years. I hope to get a little done at the end of the month, depending on how my check pans out for the month. Really need a good cleaning and probably a couple just yanked out in the back. Probably have to be a little bit here and there.
Truck is limping around as well. Gonna have to figure something out before to long. Hopefully something will come through for me to be able to afford a new vehicle. Someone want to buy me a new truck? Love ya forever. LOL.
Hopefully I can go into more details about some particular aspect of things I have going on in my life in my next few blogs. Just tired tonight.
I have been adding things up in my head of what it would take to get me ON TRACK in my finacial world. This would include my own home and new vehicle and many old debts or obligatrions I owe on. Just need maybe $150,000. Figuring I could get a decent home for $100,000 around here. So $50, 000 would be the main part I need first to clear everything up and get a vehicle. It would give me a clean slate. Anyone wanna donate to the Eric Fund? HaHa, slow and steady and it will come....There are over 300 Million people in the US. Figure I should be able to get at least 50,000 people to send me a buck. Sounds simple. LOL. Hmmmmmmm
I hope to have more things on track by weeks end. Have kids this weekend and we are gonna do something fun. Always brightens my day to hang out with them. I miss them everyday....Thanks for reading tonight peeps. Sorry not to exciting.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Day 1 Comes to an End
Sweet end to a very busy day. I am thankful today for you ;) I did not eat really great today. I did manage to only smoke 3 cigarettes. Better then a pack I guess..Keep the patches going. I watched the video for the Bowflex and need to get a routine of some sort together. I didnt get to diner till late and decided against a late walk and went to the pool instead. Let me chat for a minute about the pool.
Ok I go to the pool at night for several reasons. First of all I hate the blaring heat we have here during the day. I HATE the heat. I sweat alot and it sucks. It drains me and sucks the life out of me. I dont have AC in my truck either and I have to run around a lot. So the first reason would be its not a million degrees outside. Second, its always empty. We have a small neighborhood and I am almost always alone. I like tit hat way. Dont get me wrong, would be nice to have someone special there, but just isnt happening right now. It just gives me time to reflect on so many things going on in my crazy head. If you were to try and follow all my thoughts you would be dizzy. They really just dont stop. I love to reflect and ask myself what if this or what if that and if only this would happen then this would work out. Thats my mind non stop. At the pool at night its quiet and I can slow the thoughts down a tad. Its very relaxing. I feel like I have no worries in the world when I am at the pool just floating around.
I dont think I really did any particular good deed today. I did hand off a customer to another sales person, which was just the right thing to do. But we all normally do that at work. Actually now that I think about it. 3 people I sent cards to last week got them and all thanked me for them today. Company called SendOutCards makes it so easy to send real cards with real stamps and all to people. My friend Jen is a rep for them so check her out if ya wanna try it.
Read abot 30 pages in my book called " Monk and the Merchant " by Terry Felber. Great book. Its a quick read. Maybe another hour so a couple more times and I will be done. Its about people skills and life skills to be sucessful. Not your traditional stuff. Some based on biblical principles and some based on life experience in the old world. If ya wanna read it I will send it to ya. Just let me know.
I find myself driving harder and harder to get back on top of life. I almost feel like I can see the light. That day will come when I am in control and not a slave to others. I want to decide my destiny and were it will go, where I will live, where I will work and who my friends are. I want to do things my way. I want to dream big and always show people its OK to dream bigg, be un realistic with your imagination and let go of what the NORM is supposed to be. I want to help people get ahead. I have to first do it for myself and then I can go forward and make my dreams happen. So many things to do, but I have so much time left to do it in...I want to own some hotels, I want to rehab and flip houses, I want to see homeless shelters go up, I want to give people hope, I want to make lives better, I want to travel the world on a cruise, I want to live on a boat for a year, I want to give a waitress or waiter a life changing tip, I want to hand someone an amountof money that will change thier lives completely, I want to see my children enjoy life and know life is what you make it, I want my children to be proud I am their father, I want to see their dreams come to life and help make it happen for them, I want to see the Pyramids, I want to go to Russia, I want to go on a Safari, I want to feed a village, I want to Sky Dive, I want to Bungee jump, I want to live in a remote place like Alaska, I want to go to the Olympics, I want to own a Race Team both cars and Motorcycles, I want to own a Football team, I want to go to the superbowl, I want to own a Baseball team, I want my family to never want again or struggle, I want my dads issues with cancer to go away, I want my mom to be happy, I want this and so much more.
Good Night. Now ya see what I mean about my mind???? LOL.
Ok I go to the pool at night for several reasons. First of all I hate the blaring heat we have here during the day. I HATE the heat. I sweat alot and it sucks. It drains me and sucks the life out of me. I dont have AC in my truck either and I have to run around a lot. So the first reason would be its not a million degrees outside. Second, its always empty. We have a small neighborhood and I am almost always alone. I like tit hat way. Dont get me wrong, would be nice to have someone special there, but just isnt happening right now. It just gives me time to reflect on so many things going on in my crazy head. If you were to try and follow all my thoughts you would be dizzy. They really just dont stop. I love to reflect and ask myself what if this or what if that and if only this would happen then this would work out. Thats my mind non stop. At the pool at night its quiet and I can slow the thoughts down a tad. Its very relaxing. I feel like I have no worries in the world when I am at the pool just floating around.
I dont think I really did any particular good deed today. I did hand off a customer to another sales person, which was just the right thing to do. But we all normally do that at work. Actually now that I think about it. 3 people I sent cards to last week got them and all thanked me for them today. Company called SendOutCards makes it so easy to send real cards with real stamps and all to people. My friend Jen is a rep for them so check her out if ya wanna try it.
Read abot 30 pages in my book called " Monk and the Merchant " by Terry Felber. Great book. Its a quick read. Maybe another hour so a couple more times and I will be done. Its about people skills and life skills to be sucessful. Not your traditional stuff. Some based on biblical principles and some based on life experience in the old world. If ya wanna read it I will send it to ya. Just let me know.
I find myself driving harder and harder to get back on top of life. I almost feel like I can see the light. That day will come when I am in control and not a slave to others. I want to decide my destiny and were it will go, where I will live, where I will work and who my friends are. I want to do things my way. I want to dream big and always show people its OK to dream bigg, be un realistic with your imagination and let go of what the NORM is supposed to be. I want to help people get ahead. I have to first do it for myself and then I can go forward and make my dreams happen. So many things to do, but I have so much time left to do it in...I want to own some hotels, I want to rehab and flip houses, I want to see homeless shelters go up, I want to give people hope, I want to make lives better, I want to travel the world on a cruise, I want to live on a boat for a year, I want to give a waitress or waiter a life changing tip, I want to hand someone an amountof money that will change thier lives completely, I want to see my children enjoy life and know life is what you make it, I want my children to be proud I am their father, I want to see their dreams come to life and help make it happen for them, I want to see the Pyramids, I want to go to Russia, I want to go on a Safari, I want to feed a village, I want to Sky Dive, I want to Bungee jump, I want to live in a remote place like Alaska, I want to go to the Olympics, I want to own a Race Team both cars and Motorcycles, I want to own a Football team, I want to go to the superbowl, I want to own a Baseball team, I want my family to never want again or struggle, I want my dads issues with cancer to go away, I want my mom to be happy, I want this and so much more.
Good Night. Now ya see what I mean about my mind???? LOL.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Starting Over....
Alrighty folks. I am going to give this whole blog thing another run. I need to try harder this time to keep myself accountable and on track to constantly improving my life. Someone special has really opened my eyes to the shortcomings I have. Mainly being that if I were to be in a relationship, what would I have to offer? My health is not so great with my diabetes, sleep apnea, over weight and no sort of fitness in general. I am easily tired and run down after very short periods of time. As far as being active with someone in a relationship in any way, shape or form would not be very impressive. Would love to be able to go hiking, walks around the parks or anything else that requires some sort of physical fitness and endurance.
So main things are get a diet in order, quit smoking and establish some sort fitness routine. Fianaces is a major part of my success as well. I need to get them in order. I have to get everything I owe anyone paid off and I will need a new vehicle very soon. I have to stick with the several sources of revenue I have been trying to get on track. My main job is always my primary focus. Its an awesome job and has so much potential. Second Ihave a vending route I run and I need to continue to slowly build on that. I need to help my friend to increase Jump Castle business rentals and use my Snow Cone machine to generate money. Lastly my Pizza Cards fund raisers needs to be worked a little hear and there. Along with all this I eventually would like to get Pest Control License.
So I have my patches to help me quit smoking laid out with my gum. Will be putting it on first thing in the morning. I have a really bisy day at work and am going to try and make sure I have no Sweet Tea or Soda or sweets all day tomorrow. Then do at least a walk tomorrow night and wacth videos on using th bow flex in our living room.
Two more things I would like to incorporate in my daily routine. I want to be alotting time to read my bible, motivational books or maybe even learn to meditate. I also want to make it a daily practice to do something that makes someone happy and note something daily I am thankful for.
I belive in dreaming big or ya are not dreaming. I want everyone to laugh and be happy. Everyone deserves to know they are awesome, appreciated and needed. I need to live my loife to set that example for others. Even stupid things like getting pissed at other drivers in the car. They have to go.
Thank you for helping me get on track. Your a special, beautiful and amazing person. I hope life gives you what you truly need to be happy, no matter that may be. Love ya all and thanks for reading this...
So main things are get a diet in order, quit smoking and establish some sort fitness routine. Fianaces is a major part of my success as well. I need to get them in order. I have to get everything I owe anyone paid off and I will need a new vehicle very soon. I have to stick with the several sources of revenue I have been trying to get on track. My main job is always my primary focus. Its an awesome job and has so much potential. Second Ihave a vending route I run and I need to continue to slowly build on that. I need to help my friend to increase Jump Castle business rentals and use my Snow Cone machine to generate money. Lastly my Pizza Cards fund raisers needs to be worked a little hear and there. Along with all this I eventually would like to get Pest Control License.
So I have my patches to help me quit smoking laid out with my gum. Will be putting it on first thing in the morning. I have a really bisy day at work and am going to try and make sure I have no Sweet Tea or Soda or sweets all day tomorrow. Then do at least a walk tomorrow night and wacth videos on using th bow flex in our living room.
Two more things I would like to incorporate in my daily routine. I want to be alotting time to read my bible, motivational books or maybe even learn to meditate. I also want to make it a daily practice to do something that makes someone happy and note something daily I am thankful for.
I belive in dreaming big or ya are not dreaming. I want everyone to laugh and be happy. Everyone deserves to know they are awesome, appreciated and needed. I need to live my loife to set that example for others. Even stupid things like getting pissed at other drivers in the car. They have to go.
Thank you for helping me get on track. Your a special, beautiful and amazing person. I hope life gives you what you truly need to be happy, no matter that may be. Love ya all and thanks for reading this...
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