Well, just wanted to drop an update on ya. Couple things. May get a bit deep here. Gotta do that every now and then.
first thing is I really hate being so broke. My bank account is constantly in the hole and I dont ever have a nickel to do anything fun. Try so hard to make something work and it is always so slow or doesnt pan out. Ugggg, OK enough venting about that. Anyone wanna send me like 50K?
Next is I have been thinking more and more about being single lately. Decided I am still happy being single. A friend every now and then is nice, but I have to much going on to treat a woman how she deserves to be treated. I like making people smile and surely there is one I would marry tomorrow if the cahnce came up. Not happening though. I always fall for the wrong people. The wrong people fall for me. Hurts sometimes, but in the end its always the best path for her and me. I do someday want to give a deserving woman of my greatnes, lol, a good life. I dont know how I am going to eat somedays mch less support a relationship. Many say thats not what matters or who cares if we go out and do things, but they dont get that it means very rarely will we get to do anything. I have taught myself to be happy with doing nothing. I love texting friends, playing around via texts or even phone calls, but in the end women dont want to sit around day after day for possibly years and do nothing, because of my broke ass. No matter how much they say it dont matter. Dated a girl not to long ago and somehow she took what we had to be a relationship. She is an awesome girl, but I was clear with her from the beginning that we could only be friends. She said she understood, me being busy or time with my kids being first, but I could tell it bothered her if I didnt have time for her. Sorry, but thats how it is sometimes. She ended up hurt even asing why I broke up with her. I never new we were exclusive. We were not is the point. She took sex to mean boyfriend and girlfriend. It didnt matter how many times I said we were not a couple. I hate that she was hurt. It really sucked we couldnt be friends. Sexx was just fun for us to me and she took it to mean more. I really am upfront and honets when it comes to that. Sex, dont take my man card, is not that important to me. I can handle that alone, but its just an extra that is really fun to me. It can mean something with the right person. And sometimes it does, but was not supposed to in this case. OK, enough about this I jus want to make people happy and let them know someone cares and that not everyone is out for one thing. Cause I am really not.
I recently found myself falling for a girl and in all angles it was not happening. Well now its reality that its not happening. HUrt pretty good. What would such a beautiul established girl see in me and why take such a leap for me. Someday it may be something and someday just happens to be when I am willing to make try and work something out. I need to be financially secure and stable. To many shitty days for me now. I ate cereal, rice and cup of noodles for my meals monday. Clinton took me to dinner at mexican on top of a bowl of cereal yesterday. Just gets tough every now and then. I hate money. Why cant we just hae what we want. Ugggg. I am not upset, cause I didnt need to eat out and at least I had something to eat. Hate though that when a friend calls to go ea with him I have to say I am broke and cant go. Just really sucks.
OK enough ranting about that. I am really content with what I have. I have my kids and I ge to see them very often. They are the most omportant things in the world to me. Dont take this as bitching, just a forum for me to lay out my thoughts.
On anpther note, Alyssa Milano is just amazing. Whos the Boss re runs is on. Wow!!!I always loved her. Between her, Drew Barrymore, and Angelina Jolie I would marry any of them. Yummy. Night peeps!!!!!!!!
The issue of "who pays" is probably one of the largest sources of confusion for singles. Most people today feel that the bill is the responsibility of the party that asked for the date. That said, for me is courteous to offer to "go Dutch" and split the costs. If my date does pick up the tab, I offer to pay the next time. There’s nothing wrong with that is called manners. If she's really into you, she wouldn't mind.
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